I know it's not normal for me to talk about personal issues, I pretty much never have on here anyway but here goes... Also, ANY prayers and/or anything are greatly appreciated.

There's this very special person in my life. I've known them for almost 2 years. They don't live around here. Yet it seems I care more about this person than anyone I've ever met. They are so special to me. Up until recently (when this person has begun to ignore me quite a bit), we used to talk almost every day, all day. And they are now suffering from depression and thinking about and considering suicide. They have practically begged me to stop caring about them, but I refuse to. They say no one cares about them anymore, that they don't fit in on this world so they want out. I know it is their depression talking and thinking these untrue things. But that doesn't change things. Seems they'd rather die and be potentially worse off, and make their loved ones worse off, than to deal with the issues and be back to their normal self. In fact, in not too terribly long, the person would likely be freed from it. It's a common, yet serious, form of depression that almost never lasts more than a few years.

Unless you've been through that, or know a very good friend or family member that's been or is going through it, you have no idea what it's like for me, or them, to deal with it. They are 100% different when they get sad. This person is one of my very best friends ever and they need help. I've tried, they won't listen to me.

They don't seem to be willing to tell someone about what's going on. And since this person has put trust in me and has told me a little bit about what they're going through... I can't do anything physically about it... cause they don't live here. SO I let one of that person's friends know about it. And she doesn't know what to do either. And this person found out I've been talking to their friend about it and now this person is upset with me. I've been taught all my life if someone's suffering, I gotta SPEAK UP about it. Otherwise, I'd be one of the only people that knows about this. And if something happened and I didn't tell someone.. well.. I don't know how I could live with myself. For ruining a chance at helping this person when they need it most.

I've been on the verge of depression a couple times lately, including today because of it. But I know what depression does to a person so I am fighting the feeling off of me. I NEED HELP! Any prayers or anything you're willing to give, whether in secret or right here on deviantART would be GREATLY appreciated. I am so scared to lose this person. I don't know if I could live with myself if anything happened to them.